I haven’t been sleeping well lately.
It might be because I am stressed.
It might be because of my poor habits.
it’s not a problem I drink so much coffee.
And yes my phone can be a distraction.
But I don’t think those things are the cause.
Am I in denial? Of course not. Maybe. Possibly.
Truthfully, I am just in search for an excuse.
The guilty pleasure that is a nap.
It’s been so quiet lately.
The windows being open let’s me hear all the birds
And the sound of the little traffic, here and there
A sense of calm soothes my ever busy mind
Before I know it. Before I do anything else,
I’m fast asleep. But not waken by nightmares.
Not waking up in the dark cold and distressed.
No. I finally find that peace of mind that evades me every single night.
I finally find a center where I’m not rolling over checking the numbers that blink on my phone.
I finally find that sweet taste of freedom that is sung by all the birds who can fly to wherever.
Yes that is why I search for an excuse.
But no it’s not my habits or the coffee that keep me up.
It’s not any of those.
I stay up because I can’t sleep….
But honestly, because I yearn more for a sweet day nap.